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[May. 27th, 2008|07:09 pm] |
not even the equinox & already the stiffling grip of swamp summer is upon us.
or at least it has hold on the inside of my house. |
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[Apr. 17th, 2008|10:43 pm] |
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DUDE, I DIDN'T MEAN TO MARSH YR MALLOW. |
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[Apr. 6th, 2008|11:57 pm] |
last week free will astrology gave me a power metaphor & it was
IN THE BUFF ON THE HOLY MOUNTAINTOP.
& i kind of don't ever want to forget that. |
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[Nov. 21st, 2007|10:56 pm] |
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i wanna live within walking distance of a (CLEAN) body of water again. |
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[Sep. 28th, 2007|11:19 pm] |
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overfuckingwhelmed. i feel like i haven't really stopped moving since i got back from bc. 2 bike accidents in exactly a week after not having a bike accident since i was like, 7. getting itchy, dreaming about escaping dc even though i'm (mostly) happy here. summer was fun, now shit's fizzling out. gotta happen, i guess. fuuuhhh. |
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[Aug. 29th, 2007|11:17 am] |
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i'm sitting in the library at emily carr & it's weird to think that really i have no place here but i look enough like an art student that no one questions my being here. i guess really if you just walk around like you know what you're doing then people won't question you. it feels simultaneously crazy & totally normal here. there are certain areas where it just feels right, like a part of me never left & will always be dwelling there. then there are other areas < cough >jericho beach< /cough>, < cough >robson street< /cough > where i feel vaguely alienated - though that could be all in my mind. i just try to look like i don't give a fuck & don't make eye contact with anyone. it's easy to shrug off the occasional creepy 'we're living in a tv commercial' vibe of van when you're not here but damn, it hit me full force yesterday. i was near a yacht club watching tons of super healthy people jog past me, middle-aged peeps playing with their dog-as-child, fams with their kids, a group of brohans from which i actually heard the phrase "drain the salamander", etc. it felt awful but i think i was also being paranoid & i kept trying to remind myself that not everyone is as simple as a stereotype. anyway. yea. i feel like the past year of my life has been sucked into a vortex & i'm back in august 2006, never having left. it's making me consider all the shit that's happened since then & i realize how fucking happy i am in dc. this visit might save me from romanticizing life in van, because i think i realize now that i don't think i'd want to live here again at this point in my life. anyway. i'm having a fucking awesome time. |
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[Aug. 20th, 2007|06:48 pm] |
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NEXT MONDAY I AM LEAVING TO SPEND A WEEK & A HALF IN BRITISH COLUMBIA. |
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[Jun. 10th, 2007|08:09 pm] |
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fuck being stuck in delaware because of beach traffic. |
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[Apr. 28th, 2007|11:47 pm] |
tonight, the perp on law & order:svu was played by the same dude that was bobby briggs on twin peaks. i guess at least hermonie will care. did you see that episode, herm?
i'm sick right now. & i have to write a 10pg paper by tuesday. life rules. |
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[Apr. 1st, 2007|05:44 pm] |
"But tell me, what would it feel like to chuck the entire collection of Western cultural baggage?
Have you ever surprised yourself by taking the most monumental crap imaginable?"
- Michael Brownstein, world on fire |
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[Mar. 15th, 2007|05:56 pm] |
i love the rain. it's so calming & renewing. it is unfortunate that the uncomfortableness of soggy clothing dampens (ha!) the feeling.
anyway.
i'm not into stress. it's been harshin my mellow. uncool.
but,
today i got to hang out in a pine grove for a while, outside of loch raven reservoir. the trees seemed so young compared to those in bc. it was perfect weather to go out by the water & sit & read but i couldn't find any entrances. so, i just went home. i want to go to gunpowder falls soon. on a really nice day & have a picnic. who's game? |
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| cyber junk monkey. |
[Mar. 8th, 2007|03:07 pm] |
imagine this. spending your summer living in a tent on an island in the pacific northwest.
yeaaa. can you dig it? |
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[Feb. 15th, 2007|06:35 pm] |
i am feeling very bummed out today.
the whole world kind of bums me out. sometimes i feel like any action is futile. how negative is that?
i wish that i had awesome conversations with caitlin sherwood & people like her more often. i wish i had more awesome conversations in general. the ones that leave you feeling better about yourself & about having to live on this planet. you know, reading kurt vonnegut right now is probably making me feel worse.
i am thinking of proposing a trip to either viti levu, fiji or pascua-lama, chile for the traveling fellowship. it is cool to think about doing that. i'm good at daydreaming & i'm good at researching so i'm good at thinking up these schemes. but i'm also good at telling myself that it'll never happen or that it's pointless.
i think right now i need someone to baby me & tell me eruhting's gan be aright, like someone that i will actually believe. |
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[Jan. 31st, 2007|06:28 pm] |
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oh man. today i got so much awesome stuff.
i acquired:
- a fucking pulp fiction vhs
- a dazed & confused vhs
- a reality bites vhs
- incense (a group of sandlewood/frankinsence/lotus/jasmine/patchouli)
- a bottle for lotion
- a lighter w/a hand drawn ladies eyeballs design
- asparagus spears
- soy cheese
- a shirt that says LOVE NEVER DIES with two skeletons boning (ha!) each other
& i bought:
- a canvas tote bag that has drawings of baskets on it, for groceries
- sherpa lined mocs $1 !!!
- the gruesome acts of capitalism by david lester
- nikki mcclure 2007 calendar (that i'm actually a little bummed about bc i didn't realize there aren't boxes for writing shit in)
i have talked a lot today. there are some days i mainly stay to myself but man, today, once i opened my mouth it seemed like i couldn't get it to stay shut for very long. i think during my quiet days i store up all these thoughts then once i hang out w/someone i just unleash it all on them. i got a surprise free breakfast w/ a lot of friends at a tiny table & we all did the crossword. sort of. i don't think we finished it. but it was nice. though, i haven't gotten any work done. i guess now i should go read about white light & shit. |
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[Jan. 10th, 2007|10:07 pm] |
i wish i wish i wish i could do more
more (see: photographing)
more (see: socializing)
more (see: worthwhile actions)
etc.
etc.
etc.
etc.
but for some reason, i think i can't.
i did, however, rearrange my room. sleep in til noon. stich up a shirt. shower. go to the market. make a meal w/friends (black bean soup w/tnv biscuits). read. & look at photos that made me wish i were taking more photos. |
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[Jan. 6th, 2007|11:00 pm] |
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i didn't really think about a resolution for the year. i thought i didn't want to have one. but then i realized that's not true. i am going to try to take all animal (by)products out of my diet & i should also take more photos. but i'm not sure how i should regulate that. one a day? a roll a week? biweekly? it would be cool if i could do a weekly photo post but i also know i am too lazy for that & sometimes am weirded out by internet forums. oh, i should also try to figure out a good hairstyle. & become active in the bmore community. & try to have a social life & open up to people more. |
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| past week |
[Jan. 4th, 2007|03:11 pm] |
richmond:
+ nefftian
+ fishbowls
- allergies
- emergency room
+ being able to breathe
+ friend's mini-naturopath library
+ harrison street cafe
+ stolie's/ukropia
- burning fingertips on a grill
+ listening to records
+ greenstoner (tho technically not richmond)
- squabbles
nova:
+ meeting a friend's awesome parents & family pets
+ arriving just as the cat pukes up a hairball
+ seeing bff's family for the first time in 6 years
+ little katie
+ late night walk w/a stepmom
+/- wegmans
dc:
+ posiyouth fest
+ seeing caitlin & raph!
+ julia's empanadas
+ reeking
- sitting in traffic for an hour
- getting home at 5am
+ a sleepy bff semi-heart2heart
delaware:
+ getting home to an ebay package: MAMIYA RB67
- nefftian withdrawal
+ not having to do anything
- not having anything to do
+ hanging out w/my dogs
i think i am going to be back in baltimore next monday. word up. |
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